Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Red-Shirting, Player in the Achievement Gap





About a year ago I worked as a lead pre-school teacher on the north side of Grand Rapids. Our school demographic was made up of mostly middle upper class families, with the exception of a handful of students on scholarship from the Great Start Readiness program. Nearing the end of the school year we had conferences with our four year old group. The main point of these meetings was to discuss kindergarten placement for the next school year. Almost all parents were already set on which school they were sending their child. Most avoiding the Grand Rapids Public schools as much as possible. A handful of parents though were unsure of where to place their kiddo the next year. A couple students were on the young side and were teetering on early birthdays. These two students were white boys, who were in the middle in terms of birthdays, not too young, not too old. These two acted young for their age, but skill level wise they were ready to go. The parents of these students were very concerned about what to do, whether they should keep them for an extra year in our preschool program, where they would be older and more “mature” the next year. The other option being to send them along to kindergarten and see what would happen.













I did my student teaching in a kindergarten placement and taught summer school with successful results. By no means did that make me a kindergarten master, but compared to the knowledge base of the other teachers at my school, and had a fresh view point in terms of school readiness skill expectancy. My viewpoint was biased compared to the suburban mindset of the school. I spent all of my time student teaching and subbing in the Wyoming Public School district. This is an urban district with a high Hispanic population. Most students enter school as soon as they are eligible. There is a head start/early childhood center with opportunities of schooling before kindergarten, but even then there are only so many spots and not always the knowledge of availability. Most of my kids in my student teaching class were of a minority race. Some students came into our kindergarten classroom emotionally young and unprepared in the tools of school readiness. Did I think they were not ready for school, though? Absolutely not. They might have had a delayed start time in terms of catching up with the rest of the students but with hard work they were learning relatively the same pace as the rest of the class, and later went on to the first grade.






When my preschool parents were asking whether their child was ready or not for school. I kept reflecting on my Wyoming kindergartners. I kept thinking, if those kids can jump in and do it, why not these guys? Why can’t they have that little extra leap of faith and jump into kindergarten The other teachers had concerns that they were not ready because of things like not being able to hold scissors, or the amount of responses they would give to an adult, and the size of their bodies. In my mind this just seemed so absurd that these were the red flag factors given to keep these guys at home or in preschool for another year. They would be much larger than the rest of the students in their classes and definitely bored if they stayed an extra year in preschool, and way ahead of the fresh kindergartners the next year. I gave my opinion saying I thought they would be fine. But no one listened to me.


I read the book Multiplication is For White People, by Lisa Delpit. This book is fantastic, I highly recommend


it. Much of it discusses the achievement gap and was we can do to fill it in , and what we are doing that is preventing that change from happening.






While reading and listening to Lisa Delpit talk about the concept of red-shirting . Red-shirting was given its name after colleges red shirt their sports players, giving them an extra year to get bigger. This is the same idea with incoming kindergartners. The kindergarten cutoff date tells parents when their kids can start school based on when they will turn five. The idea behind keeping students held back out of school for an extra year is thought by parents to give kids an advantage physically and academically. In Mark J. Penn’s book, Microtrends; The Small Forces Behind Tomorrow’s Big Changes, he notes that “the typical red-shirted child is a boy with white, well-educated parents” (Penn). Why these parents in this demographic? They enjoy how it feels to be at the top of the pack and know how competitive it is. They want their children to have the same benefits, along with a head start. The popularity in this trend does not seem to be going away. A recent New York Times article gave the statistic that “ in 2008 17% of kindergarten entrants were at least six years old, nine percent of those being red-shirted” ( Wang). I honed in and felt connected to the issue because of my position working at the preschool. My eyes were opened up to an issue that I can see occurring all the time, but I had no idea that it was being acknowledged by a name, or the amount of power it has on the achievement gap








http://www.nytimes.com/2011/09/25/opinion/sunday/dont-delay-your-kindergartners-start.html










Kindergarten was once place to learn social skills and focused on learning through play and experiences. These valuable skills a necessity for their growth and development in navigating their next experiences in academics and social society. Glancing back at my own personal experience with kindergarten I remember hands on art projects galore, lots of play, class projects, and even the occasional nap. Now is a completely different kind of story. My time spent teaching in a kindergarten classroom clearly shows that to me. With changing curriculum and state standards, students’ expectations are incredibly higher. There is a higher pressure for students to achieve early school readiness skills needed for more formal academics.






These pressures are the soul basis for why parents choose to red-shirt their kids. A recent study done on the changes of a child’s timeline discusses the parental attitudes behind this saying “Parents believe that older children out-compete their younger peers in the classroom, on the athletic field, and in college admissions. Thus, eager to give their children an edge, parents are willing to hold back their child one year in order to shift them up the pecking order” ( Deming & Dynarski). The idea that bigger is better, and more experience will get you ahead completely applies here with parents keeping their children behind a year whether at home, or in a preschool setting, getting a jump start on their peers.






http://users.nber.org/~dynarski/Deming_Dynarski_Childhood.pdf





All of this looks good on paper, giving our students that jump start in a highly competitive world, but wait. If we look back to the demographic this focuses on, upper middle class white, and typically a boy. In some ways this is quite the impossible cookie cutter to live up to. That completely leaves out our at-risk student demographic. Families from at-risk demographics cannot compete with these red-shirting families for a variety of reasons. While red-shirters stay home an extra year with a caregiver, complete some form of preschool/day care, students from at risk families do not have that leisure or money to make that choice of staying home an extra year. At risk students attend school when they qualify according to the kindergarten cut off, whether that means they’re younger or older in the class.






Just because a student is at-risk doesn't always mean they are not coming into school with no pre-school experiences but because of their socio economic status it does often make preschool unobtainable or have a huge effect on their kindergarten readiness. Studies have shown that students who have attended preschool prior to kindergarten have a higher kindergarten readiness, which is critical for success especially with students from lower income families. But how available or even obtainable is preschool for our at-risk students? A Children’s Defense Fund Study reported “that only 42% of children from house- holds with incomes under $15,000 annually were enrolled in preschool, compared with 65% of children whose parents earned more than $50,000” (Frey). That is such a large percentage of students being left out of a chance of having kindergarten readiness who truly need it the most.






Even if at-risk parents would like to send their child to pre-school for an extra year, this often isn't even possible. A study examining at-risk Latino students and at-risk preschool experiences and the implications of what they can afford. The article says that “Subsidized preschool and a day-care programs typically have strict age requirements such that children must leave the preschool when they are first legally able to enter kindergarten. These rules are driven by economic factors, as programs strive to serve as many children as possible with limited funds” (Cosden). Recently my own preschool has been preparing to apply to become a great start program. The amount of paperwork and requirements to make this happen is astonishing, but well worth it. We will be given scholarship money to allow at-risk students in our program so they do not have to pay tuition costs. Although it is great that we are doing this, I can see where other schools might have difficulties making these requirements that revolve around required school hours, staff numbers etc. On a frustrating note to do this you have to request the number of slots you would like for scholarship students. Numbers can often vary depending on the attitude of the school. I know I personally had to argue for more spots because others making the decision were considered that if we had too many at-risk children it would ruin the family dynamic of our preschool. How absurd! These are just a few examples of what at-risk students are up against just trying to obtain kindergarten readiness before even entering school.


Upon entering school the effect red-shirting has on our at-risk students is quite


frustrating. Students entering school on time, not red shirted for year, are ready for school expecting to be taught at age appropriate curriculum. Instead, since so many children enter school at the age of six curriculum can be pushed ahead as far as 18 months because of the developmental differences and experiences. Students coming in at a normal time expectation are prepared to play and pretend are interested in age appropriate items. This can often create a social gap as well with older students setting an unreachable maturity gap. Not only is this a disadvantage for students, but teacher’s jobs become even harder having to balance almost two different grade levels of curriculum in one classroom. At-risk students from day one have to compete with red-shirted students. During a time when learning and development are most crucial, these first few years stretch the achievement gap even further. This increases the retention rate with our at-risk students. A recent article in Mother Goose discussed this saying “Given the increasingly dramatic size of the existing achievement gap—one exacerbated by few affordable pre-K options—some worry that as teachers make kindergarten more challenging to engage the older students, low-income

kids will fall even further behind .“






http://www.motherjones.com/mojo/2013/10/redshirting-kindergarten-backfire-education






So, to back track and examine the effects of red-shirting, this widens the achievement gap, creates a divide in social maturity, and raises the competitiveness with academic development and skill level, creates curriculum difficulties for teachers, and increases competition for kindergarten readiness. All of these things have an influence on state education laws. The increase in these trends of red-shirting has developed into something called a Kindergarten Arms Race, this being defined as “with children starting school at an ever-increasing age in order to gain a perceived advantage on standardized tests” (Deming &Dynarskis). This means that the age requirement for entering kindergarten is being pushed back further and further to keep up with competition and maintain test scores. The same study discussing this says that in long term results of this “The presence of older, more mature children in a class may lead teachers to raise their standards, resulting in lower relative performance and increased grade retention rates for children who enter school at the statutory age”. The same study shared the after effects of this trend sharing that when the age of school entry rises, so do high school dropout rates. Many teenagers leave school as soon as the law will let them. Teenagers who leave school as soon as they are legally able (say, at age 17) will end up with more years of schooling if they entered first grade at age six than if they entered at age seven. High school graduation rates in the United States are stagnant or falling , and the United States is falling behind other nations in its rate of human capital accumulation”. I personally thought this was interesting. I think often times we focus on what is good right now, and what will give us that immediate jump-start, but what about the later outcomes? Outside of the effects on at-risk students, Mark J. Penn pointed out in Microtrends that with red-shirting our children we will see a rise in things like sexually active middle schoolers, 11th grade military enrollment, high school voters, and high school dropouts.






After sorting through research for and against red shirting and the effects on our at risk students, and outside of examining future outcomes, it is safe to say that we cannot make the claim the red-shirting benefits our children enough to continues the practice. We can say that the effects on our at-risk children completely widen the achievement gap and continue to make it harder to compete with the top group in school. “ A U.S. Department of Education study of 21,000 pupils released in May found that, by the end of first grade, red-shirted kids did slightly better in reading, but worse in math than their grade- level peers who entered kindergarten on time. Other studies have shown that red-shirted kids excel academically for a while, but the advantage disappears by third grade. In another study with early literacy shows that “. Delayed students showed a better understanding of the connection between letter sounds at the ends of words and understanding words in context and score better on tests of academic achievement in math, reading, and general knowledge.


In contrast a New York Times article shared information showing the gap break up over time saying “In a class of 25, the average difference is equivalent to going from 13th place to 11th. This advantage fades by the end of elementary school, though, and disadvantages start to accumulate. In high school, red-shirted children are less motivated and perform less well. By adulthood, they are no better off in wages or educational attainment — in fact, their lifetime earnings are reduced by one year” (Wang). Although this shows the breakup of red-shirt advantages over time, it seems clear that our at-risk students will feel the effects of it for most of their lives.






http://www.nytimes.com/2011/09/25/opinion/sunday/dont-delay-your-kindergartners-start.html?_r=0






In Malcom Gladwell’s book, The Outliers,









he discusses the idea of red-shirting relating the topic to Canadian hockey players just entering their leagues, and how competitive it is to be on a winning team. He explains the Matthew Effect that is the idea that those who are given much, will have an abundance. He uses this to explain how older children redshirted do better in these leagues because of their birth month. He discusses how redshirting puts students into the patterns of “achievement and underachievement, encouragement and discouragement” that stretches on. He says that with this maturity difference “they put the older kids in the advanced stream, where they learn betters skills, and the next year because they are in the higher groups, they do even better, and the next year the same things happen and they do better again” (Gladwell). Although his opinions and research again varies with the rest, it points out again the continued influence red-shirting has on at-risk students, splitting the older students and at-risk students in two different groups of achievement and development. Is that the way we constantly want to have to teach students? Doesn’t it seem like there should be a better way of entering and requiring students on timeline than this?


The question that I keep going back to in relation to my stories about my pre-school and other teaching experience in terms of the discussion surrounding deciding when to send kids to school, is do we really want to teach with this attitude knowing that many at-risk students are completely getting the disadvantage? It seems completely unhealthy to have a system of entrance that is so incredibly competitive and concerned about being on top that we can’t take a moment to look at the big picture and see how it continue to promote and secure the achievement gap.































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Sunday, July 26, 2015

Poor Kids



A professor of mine showed this in class last Friday. It has been stuck on my mind since. Poverty is not something new in my life, but I think often times it is easier to just categorize stories as stories. I think we forget the human aspect that these belong to real people. These are situations students in our classrooms are facing each day.  I do not mean to post this as a scare or sad tactic. I think it is important to be aware and remain knowledgeable. How could we use this to create a stronger classroom community? How can we use this to connect students with more resources and help them reach their fullest potential? How can we be the change?

Wake UP



Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie has the most beautiful way with words. If you take a second to listen, the knowledge of a single story could change so much of what is wrong with our society. 

Why I Hate Teachers Pay Teachers










First off, just bear with me if this is a website you’re a fan of before jumping into defensive mode . I swear there is a point to this.






My job working as a behavior specialist took place in a school with a high poverty rate, nearly 82% of our kids were free or reduced lunch and much of the student population is English language learners (Wyoming Public Schools).  I spent the majority of my time with our four kindergarten classrooms. My kindergarten caseload was heavy. I often would just drop in the rooms to check on kids, and observe classrooms to give suggestions. Every morning around ten o clock students would began their center rotations. These rotations, if you’re unfamiliar with this kind of practice, consist of different curriculum activities that small group of students rotate to. I love this kind of teaching. They give kids a chance to practice skills, accomplish group work in some situations, and have a more varied exposure to content during the day.
During my observations I begin to notice a pattern. Every single day at least half of the center stations were worksheets based off of the Teachers Pay Teachers website. All of these worksheets were either an item where you had to cut and paste something, or fill things out. There was also a category of a “sort” section using pocket charts. Students had to sort pictures into the correct sound pattern, or other decided rule. Now, maybe this is where you’re wondering, what is wrong with all of this? They’re working! I questioned the number of worksheets to a few teachers, as well as higher up administration. They all gave me the answer that because there were high class numbers, they had no choice but to do worksheet work activities.  


These are the problems I have with the entire situation.

   The Graphics
 Just one piece of the achievement gap has to do with the exposure of varied vocabulary and experiences with students. Students at the achieving end of the gap have had authentic experiences, and often have been surrounded by a variety of verbal vocabulary and interesting texts. In a fantastic article by USA Today, poverty is discussed in terms of success in the classroom a poignant part said "When it comes to early language development, research shows there is a 4,700 vocabulary word difference between high and low income students and that by first grade students from higher income families know twice as many words as low income students, Haskin said. This likely stems from the fact that higher income students are more likely to be read to and spoken to early in life, whereas students from a low income family might be competing for parental attention with second jobs and other financial stresses."  Worksheets from this particular site, usually revolve around a cute cartoon or coloring book generated style. This style of art is completely missing a great opportunity to show students authentic pictures of real life items that they may have not had the experience of seeing before. Often, too, this style of worksheet does not reflect the diversity and culture of the classroom it is being used in. If students cannot see themselves in the work they are doing, it doesn’t give much individual ownership over their own work. The imagery is very white suburban based.

Poverty - Test Scores http://www.newsleader.com/story/news/local/2015/07/25/complicated-correlation-poverty-lower-test-scores/30683627

Imagery and Word Choice
       Over the span of the year the kids were used to me popping in and out of their rooms. I began to notice that they would save up all their center question to ask me when I came in their rooms. I began to get incredibly frustrated over the pattern of their questions. Not because they were asking, because of why they had to ask. The issue the kids kept having was that they did not know what the pictures were of in their matching sections, or that they did not know what the words meant when having to sort for sounds. For instance, the word Jack o Lantern for Pumpkin, Hen for Chicken or a spade for shovel. There were countless incidents like this where students would not know what to do. When they asked for help, they were yelled at that they just did not want to do their work. This problem could have had two solutions. These images were connected to experiences and vocabulary exposure that students just did not have. It was not fair to expect that knowledge. If the teacher really wanted to continue to use this kind of work sheet, the teacher could have gone over these words and connected it to examples that would teach the meaning. The second option the teacher could have done is create their own worksheets that were culturally component, and done the same thing. If they really felt like going the extra mile, they could have come up with activities outside of a worksheet that encompassed the same exact content mastery goal. Possible? Completely. Extra time? Probably. It is my personal opinion though that when you put actual effort into something you’re going to see the results you want instead of confused students every day of the year.

More Authentic Clip Art/Imagery Use http://search.creativecommons.org/

       Classroom Community and Knowledge
.       My third issue with items found on Teachers Pay Teachers is the lack of thought that goes into the use of it. Teachers are stressed for time, and energy. The quick method of printing something out, having an aid or yourself cut it up, and being ready to go sounds so nice. But how is that matching your students’ individual needs? You can’t differentiate a worksheet unless you yourself have created it or have specifically chosen multiple activities for each child. The idea behind these activities is that you can laminate them and use them again every year. Again, simple and easy, but lazy. I can understand if you’re using a repeat behavior chart or even anchor chart, but students are going to be way more excited about a learning activity if it is fresh and based on some of their individual interests. Not only is it drawing them into the curriculum, but also showing them that you took that time to care about them as individuals. This furthers the trust and relationships in the classroom.


Now what?
                How do we create curriculum that doesn’t seem to further widen this achievement gap in our lower elementary grades instead of using this whitewash worksheet approach? I think this answer is something that I personally will continue to learn and develop.  I do have some strong ideas though. I think we forget what a great tool technology is. There are countless videos, online story books, Skype classrooms, and much more that can create a deeper understanding and new experiences within the classroom.Museums, historical monuments, zoos and other exhibits have online tours students can experience in almost real time. If lack of technology is an issue, nothing is greater than our good old fashioned libraries. Connecting new words and experiences with mentor texts is just as wonderful. Libraries with smaller resources have interloan opportunities to check things out from bigger libraries. Often too, they have group books to use for small group activities. Universities and other community resources also have items like this to loan out to schools. It is just all about going that extra mile to make that connection for our students. Other great ways to make these curricular connections are the use of games in centers instead of a worksheet. Although this wouldn’t always give knowledge to new material, students can learn from each other not only in the concept mastery, but in social skills and from each other’s vocabulary and experiences.



Worst comes to worst, if you completely disagree with all of this and feel more confident in worksheet ability, at least use higher quality graphics and pre-teach worksheet content. Do not choose cutesy over quality. 


Activity Suggestions, further information on the achievment gap in classroom curriculum. 
http://www.jrf.org.uk/sites/files/jrf/2123.pdf



Thursday, July 16, 2015

Less than a minute



My top favorite movies have been created by Wes Anderson. I loooove Moonrise Kingdom,





a story about two misunderstood scouts on the search for love and adventure. I am obsessed with his recreation of Roald Dahl’s Fantastic Mr. Fox. The artistic aesthetic attracts me and the unique quirky storylines keep pulling me in. Recently though, Anderson has been called out in the news by Whoopee Goldberg for not having enough people of color or people of color. While reading through the article thoughts raced through my head analyzing plot content. Could it be true? Of course it was. Daily this continued to irk me, and would come up in my thoughts on what I noticed in the media.



http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/06/19/whoopi-goldberg-wes-anderson_n_7624030.html


A short time passed and I read an interesting topic article about actor and video editor Dylan Marron.






Dylan create a project on Tumblr where he spliced every scene where a person of color speaks into one clip. Dylan said his reasoning for creating this was " I think I feel so strongly about this because I was a kid who was queer and brown, and I didn't feel like I saw my reflection in the art and entertainment that I was watching. The message that I got was: It can't be done, there is no place for you, nobody looks like you, nobody talks like you, nobody walks like you, so don't try." He created this project to share these frustrations and shed light on a very dire reality in the media industry. The results were not surprising, but still astounding. My favorite movie Moonrise Kingdom? Only 10 seconds. Wedding Crashers? 39 seconds. 500 Days of Summer? 30 seconds. Harry Potter and all its lengthy goodness? 99 seconds. All of these consisted of roles in the service industry, meaningless filler lines, stereotypes, or just the funny friend.


http://everysinglewordspoken.tumblr.com/


One of the saddest visuals he created was the splicing of The Fault in our Stars





based off of the novel by John Green, one of my favorite authors. If you do not know much about the story, check it out here. A quick summary is the story of two teenagers with terminal cancer meet in a support group, through their love of a particular author they go on a journey to meet him that ends up being the adventure of a lifetime. The spliced clip left about 30 seconds of lines for people of color, this one being the main character Hazel’s doctor. Marron’s frustration was shown when he said “It’s an amazing book that has touched so many people internationally,” Marron said. “Nowhere in the book is race mentioned, so why do you have an entirely white cast?” He is absolutely correct. John Green himself is a high advocate for social justice and chance, and a supporter diversity. Hollywood stole the opportunity to make those connections with the millions of readers of the book, taking away the experience and ownership of the story for readers of color.


If you’re not angry right now, you should be. When I hear this information and connect it with things that I have enjoyed, I began to identify the white privilege that completely controls the media and Hollywood casting choices. These societal privileges rank whites as the characters in power, the ones who get the spotlight or hero role instead of the fun buddy, first person to die, or other meaningless role. This is the underlying white privilege that people do not always care to admit, or analyze. BUT WE NEED TO. This is just one small piece of where we need to be advocates not only as teachers, but as individuals who want to make change in this white privilege Hollywood norm because this is not acceptable.



I am tired of hearing people say that if we talk about this or try to point out these stereotypes/inequities in casting that we are being too serious, or making the problem worse. Pretending there is not a problem is just as bad as perpetuating it. What can we do as teachers, as adults, as people? First off I think of my students. Particularly I go back to when I did my student teaching in a predominantly Hispanic and Black community. Every single day I would see little black girls with Hannah Montana’s face on it.






Now, I am absolutely not saying they cannot appreciate or enjoy that show. What frustrates me is this was the only choice they had in the media in terms of who to think is cool, or to try to identify with. When I think of Disney five years ago all I think of is white girls and boys living on a beach, spending loads of money, and pulling pranks. (Note: I have three younger brothers and have seen excessive amounts of this over the years) Can our students look at the screen and see themselves? Can they see their own stories in what is being acted out and in a positive authentic manner? No.

I believe it is our job as teachers to find those role models, those TV shows, those book and people in the community that are of color and fighting that white privilege power in character and predominant important roles. My students deserve to feel like they too can be that awesome, that they can do anything that they can have their stories displayed too. Because for a matter of fact, there is no reason why this should not be happening. As adults, and culturally responsive individuals we need to do a better job with the items we give attention and our power to. Personally, this is making me reanalyze and think about all my media connections and how I can change that media makeup. Solution wise this is what I have so far. I think this a topic that deserves on going attention and discussion, and I am not done trying to get involved in changing this.



Extra links: http://www.naacp.org/programs/entry/media-diversity


http://www.colorlines.com/articles/study-finds-people-color-nearly-invisible-evening-cable-news


https://youthradio.org/classroom/article/misrepresentation-of-people-of-color-in-the-media/


http://www.theguardian.com/film/2015/jul/08/person-of-colour-hollywood-films-diversity







Sunday, July 12, 2015

My Journey to Here


            The question “Why do you want to teach in an urban school?” has been asked to me so many times. By now if I do not have confident answer, I might as well hang it up and go home. My reasoning, I believe, will just be the foundation that I will keep building and reflecting on.

          In order to explain how I ended up here, I have to back track a bit and explain myself. I am the oldest child of a two parent, six kid household.  My mom is a stay at home mom, and my dad a UPS driver. Overall though, we lived the basic middle class situation of living pay check to pay check. I grew up in house set in the middle of a 16 acre wooded lot, and my village growing up, only had about five hundred residents. In terms of diversity, the most you could ever expect was the handful of Hispanic exchange students we would get each year in our high school. Otherwise, general attitudes and sharp stereotypes believed by village residents discouraged any possible chance of diversity.
 For my entire life I have always wanted to be some sort of teacher. I spent many days bossing around my youngest siblings, making them do different activities and outdoor tasks. My parents took us to the library each week, and encouraged us in our individual interests. In my elementary years, I was in love with my teachers. I was the kid who cried on the last day of school.
Fast forwarding a decade found me at Grand Valley State University, smack dab in the bible belt of West Michigan. I was in a state of transition. For personal reasons I had just bailed out of the music education program, switching into language arts, and was in a bit of a mental funk. I was ready for change. My drive to teach in an urban school came that year in Susan Carson’s Cultural Education course. That class sparked a bit of magic for me. Dr. Carson’s class took place in the library of Coit Creative Arts Elementary, an urban Grand Rapid’s Public School. The school had nearly an all-black population, with a low socio-economic status. Here we worked with students twice a week doing math and reading tutoring. We also worked with members of the community completing service projects like local food trucks, and student outings. Between our experiences within the school, Dr. Carson’s personal stories of teaching in severely impoverished areas, and serious class discussion, I begin to view education with a whole new perspective and as a whole different purpose.
 We learned from reading LisaDelpitt about how to be a warm demander, meaning that we need to hold our students to high expectations and standards, while also caring and encouraging our students to bring out the best potential.

* A great Lisa Delpitt read* 


http://www.amazon.com/Multiplication-Is-White-People-Expectations/dp/1595588981


 I learned how a neighborhood school works, and how important it is to create strong relationships with community members and outside resources. I began understand the value of relationships in education, and how understanding others’ perspectives can evoke the best solutions for our students. I learned how developing a strong classroom community can make or break your teaching year. I saw poverty through a new lens. I thought I grew up struggling, but I felt like an idiot when I began to process that there is a huge difference in not being able to afford mall style clothes, shopping at Save-a-lots, not having second car or soccer camp, and worrying about the next time you would eat during the week. I had, and still have, so much to learn about the different components of poverty and systematic inequalities. I began to examine my own bias, and although I personally think I am one of the most open minded thinkers to come out of my small town, the reality is we do not always see what is embedded deep down within.  What these students struggle with every day is something that I can only try to understand and do my best to help them reach their fullest potential. These experiences changed me forever. After that I knew there was no way I could accept the idea of teaching in a suburban or close minded classroom. I found my passion for teaching in urban in education.           
That still does not answer how I ended up in the AUSL residency. When my class with Dr. Carlson ended, I spent much time working with the at-risk, particularly Hispanic, urban population of Grand Rapids. This past year, bring me to my application to AUSL. Last year I worked as a behavioral interventionist for Parkview Elementary, the highest at risk/behaviorally challenged elementary school in our district. My job was essentially a cheaper knock off of a second social worker for my building. I was qualified because at the time I was obtaining my Masters in Special Education with an emphasis in Behavioral Disorders. Through the high-highs and low-lows, I loved my job immensely. A handful things kept eating at me.
. In our district we were seeing changes in our school population. With each year our ELL population keeps rising, along with the poverty level and need for outside student services also matching that trend. Teachers are doing their best to keep up, but the education and burn out rate is also matching that rise. My building has truly dedicated teachers, but the handful of teachers who had the clock in-clock out mentality, dragged our school down. Teachers did not have the strategies, and often energy, to try different things to reach students. Sometimes there was not even enough momentum to share ideas on what was working within the staff.
While working, I was in school full time. My hope, along with learning how to teach diverse learners, was that I would be receiving teaching that was specific to urban education. That these “expertise” professors of the field would be able to help fill in these knowledge gaps of what to do differently. I found overall this was not the case. My behavior disorder professor, Mark King was wonderful. He gave fantastic strategies, and stories of experience, discussed the importance of building relationships, and most importantly not being afraid to fail and pull yourself up and try again. My other class content though was not reaching my needs. I would ask questions about issues in my building, and they could not answer my questions. Everything was based off of the perfect white suburban classroom. I would have class days where tech materials, culturally biased texts, and classroom strategies were presented by the professor. In my district these would not work because of lack of funds, resources, space etc. When I would ask for ideas on how to differentiate these to a setting similar to my building I would either get an eye roll, or a brush off conversation. I hit early winter and I was angry. I was sick of the lack of motivation make change, and university education that could not keep up with the surrounding population or provide me with needed answers.
 That is how I ended up in my AUSL residency. I found it attractive in that it had a master’s program specifically with the content I have so badly sought after, while also giving us the hands on experiences from a turn around school.
In my last little bit I want to wrap up with the challenges I think I will face. I first and foremost know in my head I will nag myself wondering if I made the right decision to be in a program that is so data driven. Many of the strategies we are being taught are almost identical to behavior management in my behavior disorder program. I will face the challenge of going down that rabbit hole in my head of whether I think it is fantastic because I know these approaches work with behavioral challenged kids, or whether I should be unsure about that used as a whole based approach With poverty and culture being so multifaceted, I think every school will have different kinds of problems. I am excited to be able to learn from my peers who will face different and similar challenges that I will. I think a challenge will be to keep my bias in check, as well as building trust with my students and staff.  Above all, especially being in a program like AUSL, I think we will be challenged to prove we are not the white knight wannabe trying to save the day, but teachers who truly are devoted to making a difference in education.